eternal melody.
ruan mei.
written by yuri. est time zone.
established may 2024.
The feel of embroidery is similar to that of growing a culture in the laboratory — fine control of the wrist, just the right angle, and total commitment.
Every breath one takes is a perception of the self.
ooc.
I go by Yuri, I'm 28, pronouns they/she, greyace lesbian. I'm a bit introverted/socially awkward on top of being frequently busy, so if I delay in replies either ic or ooc I apologize!! I am open to sharing my discord privately as well, if requested!
Other Hoyo blogs include @swahnn, @no83, @kiaslana, @cipurr, @jndo & @astyao
Also have Path to Nowhere's Eleven @call3am
activity.
I'm a full-time online student & have to spend a lot of my time with other personal tasks, I try to pop in when I have some free time! A lot runs on queue, and some replies may be delayed; please feel free to nudge me if you'd like! I queue almost everything to run through the week, as this helps me keep a comfortable pace with my other responsibilities.
interactions.
Open to plotting or just winging it! Am also totally fine with pre-established bonds. I frequently reblog meme prompts to encourage new interactions, and also post starter calls whenever I feel caught up enough.Unfortunately I am v uncomfortable with duplicates on Ruan Mei, so I am not open to any sort of twinverse or anything, and tend to block just to avoid seeing on the dash - I'm sorry!!
formatting.
I often may use second-person writing for a paragraph or two in lengthier replies, usually to further elaborate on muse's thoughts. Most often, I use third person writing.I don't really format, I do nothing more than double space and use small text. However, I will use bold/italics to emphasize certain words accordingly. I use the new editor, and use xkit rewritten to trim reblogs. Please feel free to reach out to me for any issues with accessibility, as I don't want
triggers.
My triggers: r/pe / sexual assault / csa / domestic abuse / child abuse & cancer. I have really bad ocd, and these topics tend to make it spike due to past traumas! I mainly ask for it to be tagged, and I will not cover topics on my blog that relate to my triggers. I will block if I see it untagged or not somehow hidden, ie using a read more - PLEASE use basic tag formatting to tag triggers, as it's really difficult to blacklist if the trigger is formatted in any uncommon way. Any trigger that may come up in my writing will be tagged as "tw trigger //" ; please let me know if I miss anything that you need tagged!!
credits.
Icon border, pinned graphic, and dash icon by @briarph
Carrd psd by @cassiaslair
Icons cropped and edited by me.
etc.
Please do not bring me into drama. Note, this does not mean I'm against informing me, or anyone else, of someone's behavior. I encourage people to reach out to me if I am unknowingly interacting with someone who has hurt others. However, I am not a fan of he said/she said, baseless accusations, etc - I do expect some sort of explanation. I don't expect everyone to get along all the time, and I do believe people who may have previous displayed certain toxic behaviors can change when receiving the help they need, but I do not support continued toxicity.Do not send anon hate to me or anyone else. Any shady anon will be posted and then blocked. If you tell people "kys" I do not vibe with you, and will hardblock over that. Don't expect everyone to get along or like each other, but I think comments like that are incredibly insensitive and cruel!!Do not interact with me if you are any kind of phobic, racist, sexist, ableist, a zionist, a terf, a predator, in defense of a predator, or anything in between. This includes anyone acquainted with, or in defense of, people with numerous callouts for such behaviors. I understand people who are against callout culture, but some behaviors do need to be shared.If you write anything like inc/st, d/bcon, n/ncon, or ANYTHINGGG of the sort do not follow me!!! I will hardblock over this as it makes me incredibly uncomfortable.I am very passionate about canon and coded rep in characters of any sexuality being respected, be it repeatedly implied or clearly stated. As Hoyoverse must work around censorship laws (that have been defied before, such as Bronya and Seele in Azure Waters, but only get stricter) they still work towards hinting at rep and pulling from real-life LGBT individuals to relate to these characters.
As this is important to me personally as a lesbian, I prefer to avoid those who do not respect this, as erasure of any sort is inherently phobic. Coding exists for a reason, and canon rep should be respected. If you call this anything like policing, 'not important,' or try to throw baseless accusations of not being inclusive... kindly stay away. I do not have the energy to argue the importance of rep or why this erasure is wrong. If your sexuality was the one being erased, if your rep was being removed, would it not hurt you? Would it not make you feel lesser?
All this to say, if you write Acheron, Bronya, Seele, or any other character as anything but their canon sexuality, I'll be blocking! Not ""policing headcanons"", you're free to do what you want with headcanons, but CANON should not be erased. I just don't have to have you in my vicinity if that's something you're okay with doing. I hate that this section has to be so long but, I need to make it clear I do not appreciate this & do not appreciate harassment over this. Don't watch my blogs for posts, don't vague post me over this, don't send me anons about it, and don't try to lie about me and say i'm not inclusive or biphobic.VERY ANTI AI.DNI: if you interact with Miles aka @poswiecenia, @reapcrbunny, @demonslayvr, @soulseekcr or whatever blog he may make in the future. A blog with countless receipts on his behavior can be found here. I tend to block seeing affiliates of him, as the situation brings discomfort.
mains & exclusives.
life, a true marvel.
& Humans overestimate the infallibility of logic, and in clinging to reason can become slaves to their emotions. Science is born from fanaticism — it is a gift.
| basic information. | |
|---|---|
| name. | ruan mei. |
| age. | between 30-150. |
| birthday. | 19 february. |
| gender. | female. |
astrological sign. pisces.
pronouns. she/her.
sexuality. grey-ace.
path. harmony.
height. 5'5".
hair color. brown, turquoise streaks.
eye color. turquoise.
miscellaneous details. tba.
job occupation. scientist, member #81 of the genius society.
place of origin. a planet blessed by the abundance, one she does not entirely remember.
home. personal lab, often visits herta's space station.
affiliation. genius society.
family. all deceased.
marital status. single.
d&d alignment. somewhere between true neutral & neutral evil.
mbti. infj.
likes. science, sweets, baking, embroidery, opera.
dislikes. distractions, crowds, communicating, being interrupted.
personality. Often perceived as aloof & heartless, rumors that hold some truth to them. Ruan Mei's determination in her work has led her to be quite the recluse, an introvert preferring as little human interaction as possible. After Nous gazed upon her, this isolation worsened: apathy increased, and much of humanity became ignored for her research on life.
It is difficult for her to trust anyone. Due to this, she is prone to using manipulation tactics to benefit herself, be it through lying about her own work, or forming bonds through offering "rewards."
She finds it difficult to connect to people, and struggles to comprehend her own human emotions: the scientific reasoning may make sense to her, but they are often viewed as an inconvenience or a distraction. Still, her humanity is not completely lost: she is capable of caring, of love, but realizing her own feelings often irritates her, leading her to risk further isolating herself to avoid confronting them.
youth.
A scholar of exquisite temperament, member #81 of the illustrious Genius Society, and an expert in the field of life sciences.
She earned Nous' attention with her talent and terrifying perseverance, and began her research on the origin of life in a secretive corner of the universe. Subsequently, she was invited by Herta to collaborate with Screwllum and Stephen to develop the Simulated Universe.
Privately, she revels in traditional theater and desserts, and she is also very interested in embroidery.
. . .
During her childhood, she received early exposure to science from her mother, who was a "scientist."
Her life in a tiny house with her family of science enthusiasts was filled with love. As such, it wasn't long before she realized there were subtle differences in "love," each kind coming with different scents.
Her grandmother with silver hair was a fan of traditional theater with its humming and chirping, while her father wore a pair of large, furry boots.
Her parents loved each other, but they still argued from time to time.
She was an impassive girl who made mistakes all the time, but was also forgiven all the time.
"I was closer with Aunt Arlice compared to my other relatives, as she would buy me snacks. Her love was the best."
Soon, the young girl learned to be stubborn. Her understanding of "love" broke away from the formulae taught in textbooks.
As she grew older, her mother became strict with her. Together, they walked one step at a time on a vast glacial planet.
The girl gasped and stopped on the way, carefully observing the fantastical and enchanting "lifeforms" buried beneath the glaciers - What used to be lifeforms, at least.
Every time she arrived home after going on scientific expeditions, it was time for "rewards" —
When she took a small bite of the cake, the mouthwatering aroma would immediately cling to the roof of her mouth. Her insignificant anticipation always gave her mother's research an inviting smell.
Starting from their home, a planet blessed by Abundance, they boarded research aircraft and set off to more worlds.
Surrounded by flash bombs, silk headscarves, ribbons, and embroidery, the girl embraced joy amongst "lifeforms" created by spiraling and ascending data.
"A-Ruan, after eating Qingtuan, you must wash your fingers thoroughly before you can touch the lab bench."She was dressed all in black in a mourning attire at her parents' funeral. As usual, she still tied her hair neatly. Her expression was hidden behind her ink-black strands of hair.
She did not shed a single tear.
As the night fell, layers of geometric patterns formed by data spirals appeared on the screen in the lab. They shifted, expanded, and flowed along with the sound of traditional theater songs. After peeling away the layers of the patterns, the secret she meticulously crafted and protected with care was revealed — her parents with their eyes closed. Their faces were as impassive as if they were asleep.
"This is a let-down. They failed to keep their promise with Grandma."
"And I, too, let them down for failing to protect them as promised."
"Only science... never lets anyone down," she said.
Wanting her parents to be equal, she stopped using her previous nickname and gave herself a new name by combining each of her parents' surnames.
Since then, whenever someone asked her about her "home," there would be a flash of confusion in her eyes.
adulthood.
She seems to have forgotten everything.
. . .
In such a state, she started working around the clock on her calculations. She was so engrossed in her research that she never ate regularly. When she was on a roll, she could spend entire days and nights working on research without sleeping, and only dozed off when she hit her limit. Soon, she was only relying on the faint glow of fireflies to gather her research results every night. The more dismissive she was of the existing laws of life, the quicker she progressed. She totally disregarded formulas, then moved on to ignoring the meaning of life. She simply observed, assessed with her hands, held the data in her palm to feel it, then proceeded to concoct new laws for species.
As a result, the ferns and flowers in her lab flourished ever more. They grew at a speed visible to the human sight, and ultimately filled every space in the lab. In the space between the flowers and leaves laid the serene and emotionless countenance of her parents, formed by the aggregation of "data."
The moment her sleeping "parents" were about to open their eyes — By then, she had nearly destroyed the existing laws of biological evolution on the entire planet, yet she still marched on toward her goal.
It wasn't until she looked up from her research and stared at the sky did she notice the gaze of the Erudition had descended upon her.
After receiving the gaze of Nous, she left her home and began a reclusive life.
No one knew what she asked Nous, but after that incident, she became even more apathetic and impassive, and even more immersed in her research —She would only study the fundamental nature of "life."
A greater variety of "lifeforms" came into existence through her concoction.
Some "burning" lifeforms became flowing flames that crept and weaved under her feet. Sometimes, she felt like she was fire itself.
Some "fluid" beings turned into liquid light that slithered around her slender wrists. Sometimes, she felt like she was light itself.
Some living things concocted from "knowledge" attempted to develop their own thoughts, sentience, and emotions. They sometimes rambunctiously cry, guffaw, or wail — all these have been fused into her body.
Yet, she could not feel them.
Life only exists for such a short time, after all. They fleetingly pass from birth to death, and her research is the only constant.
Occasionally, her casual "research" would shake the schools of biology. Her "research" transformed many planets. Flying whales, swimming deer, fearful flowers, and trees with a vast root system... Her creations have already went beyond the scope of experience and imaginations comprehensible to organic life.
She kept pushing herself for a more in-depth understanding of "life," just to bring herself closer to Nous — and THEIR unforgettable glance.
. . .
Aeons... What kind of beings are they? Are they also a form of life?
As her "groundbreaking" studies rose to fame with in the cosmic academic community, people always tried to disrupt her life as a recluse.
. . .
She is certain that she won't make another mistake. It's because she no longer trusted anyone, so she won't be let down again, and... she won't let anyone else down again.
What is the fundamental essence of "life"... Where does "life" end?
Do the answers really exist?
Not a trace of emotion can be discerned on her emotionless and silent face. Yet, her hair is roiling with the heat of boiling and steaming, and the rims of her eyes are slightly red — she is enjoying this.
Only the word "Aeon" can stir her heart. Everything else in the universe is a mere distraction.
headcanon one. much of her ideas surrounding love were based entirely on what she read about. though her understanding broke away from the formulae, this was very surface level: less becoming more understanding of how it feels and more understanding how it's supposed to feel. understanding a concept in theory, but not entirely in practice. while she loves her family, this disconnect between her feelings and what's expected and recorded of familial relationships often left her feeling rather guilty: did she love them enough? did they love her more than she loved them? did she truly love them at all, or did she say so because it was expected of a daughter?headcanon two. taking her catcake creations as an example, though she has experienced familial love before, she's still entirely confused by their love for her. she responds rather negatively, viewing them as nothing more than a failure for what she had intended to accomplish. the love they view her with and the approval they seek is no different than how a child loves their mother, but that understanding she once had seemed to die alongside her own parents. through the trailblazer's aid, ruan mei begins to try and understand them, to spend time with them so that she, too, may feel the love they do for her.headcanon three. she's comfortable being alone, and doesn't feel she needs another around her for company. she has little time for that when she's so much work to do, so much research to throw herself into. and, ultimately, she feels any sort of intimacy would not only be a distraction, but a disservice to the other person: she's certain she is incapable of giving enough, for she can't see herself truly desiring someone to such a degree.headcanon four. ruan mei is grey ace. she has little to no interest in romantic or sexual pursuits, but can begin to desire such with someone she feels comfortable with. ultimately, this will only spark from someone who greatly intrigues her, as it will take a lot to keep her attention... probably helps if they're okay with her being a bit detached in the beginning, too.headcanon five. write out a brief fact / headcanon about your character that you would like people to know about here! could be about their skills, anything!
headcanon six. write out a brief fact / headcanon about your character that you would like people to know about here! could be about their skills, anything!
| STATS | RATING |
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| health | ★★★★★☆☆☆☆☆ |
| strength | ★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ |
| tenacity | ★★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆ |
| stamina | ★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ |
| intelligence | ★★★★★★★★★★ |
| dexterity | ★★★★★★★☆☆☆ |
| perception | ★★★★★★★☆☆☆ |
| creativity | ★★★★★★★☆☆☆ |
| charisma | ★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ |
| social skills | ★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ |
| empathy | ★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ |
| confidence | ★★★★★☆☆☆☆☆ |
abilities.
ability one.does your character have any special skills or abilities? write about it here! could be a specialization in a spell, field of study, or maybe they have unique abilities!ability two.does your character have any special skills or abilities? write about it here! could be a specialization in a spell, field of study, or maybe they have unique abilities!ability three.does your character have any special skills or abilities? write about it here! could be a specialization in a spell, field of study, or maybe they have unique abilities!ability four.does your character have any special skills or abilities? write about it here! could be a specialization in a spell, field of study, or maybe they have unique abilities!ability five.does your character have any special skills or abilities? write about it here! could be a specialization in a spell, field of study, or maybe they have unique abilities!ability six.does your character have any special skills or abilities? write about it here! could be a specialization in a spell, field of study, or maybe they have unique abilities!
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physical combat.
special weapons.do they have any specialized or personalized weapons, or just one they really like?special items.do they use any other special items? like smoke bombs, poison-coated arrows, etc.fighting style.what's your character's fighting style like? are they melee? ranged? hybrid? how do they make their job their own?physical strength.how would you rate their strength out of 1-10? how do they utilize their strength, or work around their lack thereof?
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skills.
first-aid.this is just an example! but maybe your character has first-aid skills. or not! rate it 1 to 10, maybe!artistry.maybe your character is an artist on the side, too!smooth-talker.maybe your character is really good at talking out & diffusing situations, & getting away with it.basically anything that's not related to the other sections can go here.
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write out a short synopsis about your verse. i recommend keeping it to a few sentences! basic details, all that. use the second line to link to a post or the tag archiving every post in your verse!
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